One of those days; sadness tinged with a smidge of hope

Today isn't a good day, first of all I missed going to work because I didn't hear my alarmclock and I also missed an important appointment. And evidently, I'm sending the wrong message to my friends... meeting some but not others. And I didn't know that they percieved it that way. So I appologized and I attend to right those wrongs, as good as I can.

So, what is my story? I'm twentysix, bisexual (and I'm still struggleing with some aspects of myself, trying hard to come to terms with them and perhaps someday be open about them, but as it is now: no, I don't feel as if I can), and I live in a small town in Sweden.

  I struggle with depression and have been doing so my entire life. I also have ADD (which is the calmer version of ADHD, if you want to know more: Search the internet or look it up in a  book!).
So reading and writing has saved my mind countless times, and it has given me an outlet. It has also given me joy and hope, and THAT is why I namned this blog-entry the way I did.

Yesterday I finished a book called 'Fat Vampire' by Johnny B. Truant. I expected it to be more funny, to be honest, with a cover like that and reading the blurb. So I was dissapointed somewhat by that, but that DOESN'T mean I didn't thoroughly enjoy it. I did! It was a diffrent take on the whole becoming-eternal-and-beautiful. Less fluff and more stuff - more action. And I like how it wasn't obvious from start to finish, the main character becomming 'beautiful' and not fat and in esscense rejecting his humbleing and difficult beginnings. If you want to read this book, I suggest that you start it with an open mind and bann every judgement in the likes of 'oh, this is bullsh*t! I know exactly how this'll end!' and read it with a big cup of tea (or coffee if you swing that way) and maybe a snack or two. It was a bit strange, but as I read I felt more and more hungry for sweets. So be ready for that!

Today I'll start reading another book (if I can get it to download properly, Kindle is being an utter and total pinapple-sandwich through a watering hose about it!): Bloodfire (Blood Destiny Book 1) by Helen Harper. Hopefully it's good, but you never can tell with some...

If Kindle still behaves like a pinapple-sandwich in ten minutes, I'll read another book I bought some days ago. 'Marionette' by T.B Markinson or perhaps 'Just Add Spice' by Carol E. Whyer.

I'm going to get myself a cup of tea,  and some toast (because I'm lazy that way, not making proper food in the middle of the night). And I hope you have a good day/good night! Until next entry!

Werewolf romances and work

I started to read Wolf Creek Alpha (Texas Pack 1), and I'm happily surprised at how easy I fly through the book. Most of my books in e-bookformat are ones I can read on Kindle on my Iphone, although my phone just up and quited on me this afternoon (or so I thought, with panic lacing my thoughts and a pounding heart). It has finally come to its full senses and decided to work again. Phew!

Wolf Creek Alpha, is about a group of werewolves protecting a magical lake and how a unsuspecting woman, friend to a female in the pack, gets caught up in all the drama and (presumably) fall in love with the lead male character. It's paranormal, easy-to-read, romance with no irritating grammar/spelling errors. (Although I make A LOT of spelling errors when typing in English, I can't really sit up on a high horse judging to harshly... but too much errors CAN ruin a book for me).
And I do so enjoy being able to get the first book in a series free, and get the chance to judge for myself if the book is any good. And this kind of paranormal romance books has quickly become a favourite genre.

This morning I woke up groggy and grumpy like the grinch, my body actively screaming at me to go back to bed after only having three hours of sleep. But I had to get to work, so up I went.
When I got outside to unlock my bike the heavens fell open and gave me the best (and I use that term sarcastically) ever experience of a humongous downpour.
So soaking wet I got on my bike, I went to the bus stop to get to work.
Finally getting to work, I notice more and more how spacey I got after so little sleep, but I still managed to get some work done and goof around with the others when we had a much needed coffee break.

After my workshift I went home and once my frontdoor was locked I collapsed on my bed, with only one thought in my head before I fell asleep: "This must be what heaven feels like...".
Now when the evening's slowly turning to night, I feel like I should take up reading and enjoy a cup of tea before heading to bed...

I hope you had a great day! Until next time!

A new start and updates of my life right now

So I started a new blogg because I wanted to start fresh. The past two years I've discovered new interests and new aspects of myself. I've gone through things that have changed me and I want to share that. Amongst those new things is the renewal of my love for reading, knitting and crocheting.
I want to set a goal for myself to review more books, both here and on Goodreads, and talk about everyday things.

And I want to discuss in this post a book I read lately: The book 'Only Half Alive' by Konstanz Silverbow.
I don't usually read YA (young adult) books but I came across this book on one of the facebook groups I'm following. Can't really remember wich one, but I'm glad I discovered this author.
The book is a wellwritten piece of work, set in our world but infused with a heavy dose of magic and intrigue. I've already written a review on Goodreads, but I truly liked it very much; the main character is a teenager, Christina, on the verge of adulthood and is thrust into troubles and encounter/meets both friends and foes, all the while struggeling with the lonelieness of being diffrent.
I recommend this book to everyone who likes to read not only about the paranormal but about a character that goes through change and grows.

I've also liked Konstanz's page on facebook because I always like to see how an author treats her/his fans. I like supporting new up and coming authors by reading their books, but the treatment of fans and the interaction between us fans and them plays a HUGE role in me continueing buying other books. Konstanz lately had a health-scare and went to the doctors, and to live in the US is to pay outrageous summs of money. All her savings towards publishing another of her books was depleated and she asked her fans to donate to her gofund-page. And because of her treatment towards her fans and the excellency of her books, I decided to donate. I was later relieved and glad that she got the funds to publish her book in time (the second of her series: 'Finding Gold, Book two: The Enchanted Rose'). I look forward to reading more of her books!

And as to what else has happened in my life:
I've gotten a job that entails cleaning utillities for those having trouble with everyday life, like special mattresses or walking aids, etc. I feel confident and I truly enjoy going to work, even though it's only two times a week. A couple of weeks ago I had a problem with a male co-worker making unwanted advances. I brought it to the attention of my boss, who with the other bosses which are male, (the area is divided in women and men, women being on the second floor and men on the first floor).
The man was asked several times to stop commenting about my looks, and after failing to realise/failing to obey the rules he also got suspended. Both me and friends who supported me and gave me the strength to stand up to him, celebrated his abscence!
So now I feel safe and respected, and I no longer feel dread at going to work.

And I would now thank you, who ever reads this, and I hope that you enjoy future posts on this blog!